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Last edited by zaangalewa; 30th October 2016 at 05:17 AM.
So was courage and generosity and humanity. I did not save myself; others saved me. My HS teachers, the families of some of my friends, a few HS boyfriends.....I am not a racist because the men who protected me in the ghetto were black. So were the men I feared would assault me.
Nobody did more for me than the family of my BFF, an Orthodox Jewish family who had Holocaust survivors as older relatives, living close by.
I am afraid of nobody and I am never confused about good vs. evil. Doesn't mean I know what the answer to all our problems are, but I have a clarity of vision that coddled, middle class life would not have created.
I never fought with my parents and I did not have to watch them grow old and die. They are both, always, young and gorgeous to me.
I was very deeply loved, and I always knew it.
This is a lot more than many, many people get, and I feel fortunate.
I grew up assuming I would marry a man. In fact, I grew up assuming I would marry someone named Michael.
But assuming that I would do what most everyone else did was different from realizing that on a basic level, my body is very much hetero and not even a little bit gay.
When I went to college and met different attractive people, I thought I might be bi. But then I learned unequivocally that whatever flirtations or fantasies I might have of a bisexual nature, my body was quite straight with no point in dabbling in anything else.
But so what? I assure you, not getting to fuck me is no tragedy. I am no great loss to my lesbian sisters, as a lover.
I'm fun, but I am not a ride at Disneyland Paris.
Since I grew up in a poor family, we didn't have much at all. When I was about 11 I realized I was a Quatrasexual. I would do anything with anyone for a quarter.