Truthfully, I don't like the word. But that's not out of any idiotic sense of political correctness. That word reminds me of my earliest childhood, back when I was surrounded by the REAL bigots of the day. N words flew all over the place. There was real hate. And I hated the people who were using that word, (although at the time I didn't know it.) I had no black friends at first because our society was totally segregated. It was an ugly time. I realize that more these days when I look back on it. And it's the reason why I'll return to that small minded North Carolina town only at gunpoint.
I had relatives in northern Louisiana who were equally southern segregationists. In the late 50s that was an even uglier place to be. It was the generation.
What REALLY bothers me is the fact that this word, this basic ignorant mispronunciation of the Spanish word for black (Negro) has so much power. It is so powerful, people don't DARE say the whole word unless they are Spike Lee, making yet another racist film. It is so powerful that it can only be uttered as N word by white people. It's like whites are confined to our own vocabulary lunch counters.